I had fun doing my first ever Let’s Play – so I’m sharing it again since it disappeared from the site during the redesign!
I was sitting here reminiscing about the past, thanks to a conversation I had with Matt over at Dinosaur Dracula, and a random thing occurred to me… how many people remember when people weren’t “Bloggers”, but when they were writers on an OPINION BOARD.
Does anyone remember the time before blogging became the accepted term for an online writer?
I do, and I decided to turn back time a little bit and really dive into the world of opinion boards and news sites. Time for a little history lesson for everyone else who doesn’t remember this time.
I am going to take you on a journey to days between Webrings and Blogging – the days of “The Scene.”
Filmmaking, I dreamt of being a filmmaker almost my entire life. Films and movies have always been a major thing for me. Ever since I saw my first movie in a theater I wanted to bring that kind of wonderment and joy to other people. Before that I saw movies at home and on Television – TONS of them, but my first THEATER experience was one that couldn’t be replicated.
The way music, and effects, and acting all blended together larger than life was astonishing to me. Film and Music, that was my entire life since I was 5 years old. As I got older I started making my own little films with friends and joined The Duck Club around 17.
Ever since that moment I knew making movies would be something I would love to do. However this isn’t going to be a history lesson. I’m talking about right now.
As you may know I recently had my script, Point Philip Chronicles, in the hands of a studio for an option period of 45 days while they decided on if they wanted to pursue it. The sad reality is my script was too original, didn’t follow a popular format, and wasn’t profitable enough for them to want to buy it.
This caused a lot of turmoil inside my already damaged mind, I started going back and forth inside my head trying to think where I messed up. Was my story not interesting enough, was it too ambitious, am I just a terrible writer?
All of this just overtook me, thoughts back and forth back and forth I couldn’t help it. My insane compulsion to think to myself how I am a failure to myself and to my family. I wasted months upon months of my life writing this autobiographical sci-fi horror film about Outer Gods and the loss of friends and family, and for what? To say I finally have a feature length script for people to turn down? That’s what it felt like.
Living in constant doubt of yourself isn’t the most attractive thing to people around you. To feel worthless all the time because you don’t think anything you do is good enough is one of the worst ways to live, and I don’t know how to stop.
After the studio turned down my script, I thought to myself that maybe I should stop trying to write the kind of films I’d like to see, maybe it was time to just churn out bullshit money making scripts that Hollywood would eat up. Bullshit like “Zombies vs Gladiators” or “I Think My Facebook Friend Is Dead” (all scripts that WERE bought by the same studio), I thought “I can do THAT… make some money… sell out like that.”
It was the best option in my mind of what to do next. To be able to get out of my day job and move forward towards my dream to be working on movies. I was convinced that this would be the right way to go…
I didn’t go that route yet. I am continuing on my own, there IS a market out there for my style of writing and the films that I want to put out there for everyone. I know there is, because I like movies like this, and I know I’m not the only one. So I power on, hoping that somewhere, somehow – they eventually get made into films. I finished four scripts currently, all of them involve the same area, the same type of crazy evil that inhabits the whole town… it’s all epic, it all ties together, and someday I hope you all get to actually see it.
Hey everyone, I’ve been slacking on the updates lately which I apologize for. Life’s been really busy in many different ways, shift changes at my ‘real’ job combined with writing two scripts at the same time, helping my wife get her crochet business in line, etc. So here’s a full on breakdown of what’s going on!
Jean-Claude Van Damme double set for Hollywood reboot
Man, i dont know…. Who can they even get to star in these…what do you all think about rebooting these?